zouk pictures all up in fb.
camera managed to pull thru its ordeal.

everyday seems so totally mundane now.
and im dreading tmr.
i want september and november to come asap.

haven't been in the best of moods recently.
finally an emotional breakdown after roughly a week.
it really feels good to let it all out.

31 sent out yet i didn't even get 1 back :(
im not being petty, i jus want something i can turn to for comfort.
anw, you have fun tmr.



God demands the totality of your being. That you invest all of yourself into celebrating the glory and the preciousness of being alive right now, no holding back and saving for later. - so i guess i should just stop brooding over him, it, everything.

back not too long ago from yummy dinner with baby's family at vivo's no signboard.

his aunt is back from hong kong and i'm gonna be her shopping partner tomorrow.
hopefully mummy gives me the car. i'm tired of public transport.

oh! and look at the time! its 11:11pm. hehe. okay everyone, make your wish!

we're back from zouk.
and dom had to come all the way down to zouk to help bring jerene back for me.

we were at mambo the whole night!
glad that sarah had fun on the platform with me (:
but it isn't the same without my mambo king :(

i've got a gazillion pictures but my camera is d-e-a-d.
like not revive-able :(

okay waiting for him to wake up and get ready for school.

guess what the postwoman just brought!


haha, my very unglam driving licence.

anyway, i feel like crap today :/
i suddenly yearn so much for him and how we used to do so many things together.
and there're so many things, which we have been saying we wanna do but, have not been fulfilled.
everything i do now feels so different.
apologies for being emo.

in my hands every night as i fall to sleep



i miss you so much.

hehe, its his first day of school today!
and i 'woke' him up (:

have fun in school baby!

today passed rather quick and dan and i are gonna zonk out soon.

i miss him much :(

CONGRATULATIONS TO MY BABY BROTHER FOR MAKING IT TO SINGAPORE YOUTH FLYING CLUB.
may you blossom in your flight, and dont forget to fly me around (:

i have officially been appointed driver.
i'm getting tired of driving.
haha.

I think i've been saying "I love you" too often and loosely, that i completely killed the meaning and essence of it and it's hard when i really want to express my true affections to him.

Everytime i say "I love you", he'll be like "Ya, I know." :/

So baby, though you're far away on our 5th month(and many more months to come), i had fun talking to you the whole day and receiving the pretty pretty sunflowers was a really pleasant surprise (:
Once again, thank you for being such a wonderful boyfriend.
You're the sweetest ever and from the bottom of my heart, i really do love you♥

My brother is back from his run, and his tummy is gone(from the daily runs)!
He has motivated me to do the same(even if it means runing in my chucks till i get a new pair of running shoes).

Tomorrow's gonna be boring(and the boyfriend's gonna be out). I have no plans what so ever, thanks to me having work on Saturday morning at friggin' 8am.

the truth is out!
hahahahaha.
thank you so much baby (:
i really like it alot.
they're really really pretty.
but blogger's being sucha biatch and i can't upload pics of the pretty flowers.

the silly boy insisted that i stay home today from 12pm to 2pm.

whatever he has up his sleeves, i will kill him when he gets back :p

anw, its our 5th month today (:
so,
HAPPY 5TH MONTHNIVERSARY BABY!

i love you a truckloads♥

today was a happy random day (:
i loved today♥

well, beside the passing of my ipod :'(
i'm still very sad.

To my dearest ipod nano 1st gen,
you've been a great pal.
always with me where ever i went.always there for me when i was bored, lonely and needed entertainment.
whatever the time, you were there for me.
your sudden departure is really tragic.i feel so lost whenever i'm alone now.
and nothing can ever replace you.and i dont think i can ever get you back again(duh, its 1st gen).

may you rest in peace with michael jackson, maybe he needs you up there.

xoxo,
ally

i'm happy that everything is going well for him now (:
Whenever you need somebody
I'll bring my love to you
You don't have to say you love me
I just wanna be with you

and i'm starting to get used to his absence, finding things to keep me busy.
zouk next wednesday with my girls, some which i have not seen in years!

that long distance call made my morning wayyy better than yesterday's (:

i think calling is better than video calling.

calling makes it sound like you're nearby.
video calling, though i get to see your face, i am reminded that you're far away.

just a random thought.

a horrible flu in the morning kicked start a horrible day.
which leads to me being even more emo, and thinking all sorts.
i never felt this before.

shut everything out, make everything go away.
walk off the building.
over dose.
multiple cuts.

i've never been much of an emo person, and i can say that this is prolly the first time i'm feeling so so so miserable.

so dan and jerene are downstairs playing guitar hero, and i retired cos i've got a full day tmr :(

i have been thinking about this for quite sometime, that all these years, there's a connection.
and jerene said "Fate had not come knocking on your door yet".

when he was a kid, he was always hanging around his dad's office at kiliney and eating at kiliney kopitiam.
when i was a kid, i used to hang around my cousin's place at kiliney, and also eat at kiliney kopitiam.
we'd probably walked pass each other, but took no notice.

i was always at my grandma's place at tiong bahru, eating at tiong bahru market and walking around tiong bahru plaza.
he too, was often at tiong bahru market and tiong bahru plaza.
walked pass each other, but took no notice?

when we were kids, we were always at parkway parade with our families.
once again, probably walked pass each other, but took no notice.

when he wanted to transfer primary school, they had an interview with the principal.
when mom wanted me to change class, we had an interview with the principal.
the principal is the same guy (we're from different primary schools).

when i was working at sentosa, my colleuges kept talking about him, like as if i know him, when i have no clue who he is.

and one fine day, this guy came along and he's the bestest thing that entered my life.
so, thank you baby, for bringing so much fun, joy and laughter into my life.
i miss you.

Love changes, changes everything
Love makes you fly. It can break your wings
Love changes, changes everything
Love makes the rules from fools to kings
Love changes, love changes everything

Proposal
To dream that you are being proposed to, indicates that you are merging a previously unknown aspect of yourself . More directly, the dream suggests you are thinking about marriage or some serious long-term commitment/project/situation. Your reaction to the proposal indicates your true feelings about marriage or commitment.

he dreamt about this last week.
i dreamt about this last night.

i told him, "Whatever you dream of, won't come true."
he said, "Good things will and bad things won't."

Ok, so the other stuff i saw in that dream;

Elevator
The up and down action of the elevator represents the ups and downs of your life. It also symbolizes emotions and thoughts that are emerging out of and submerging into your subconscious.
uh-huh, kinda true

Dress
To see or wear a dress in your dream, represents a feminine outlook or feminine perspective on a situation. You are freely expressing your femininity.
Look up the specific color for additional significance.
erh, i always wear dresses

Turquoise
To see turquoise in your dream, symbolizes good luck and fortune. It is said that the turquoise gemstone wards off evil. Additionally, it possess healing energy and acts to unify forces between the spirits of the earth and the air. As a color, turquoise is symbolic of healing power and natural energy. It is often associated with the sun, fire, and male power.
ok, so he's trying to tell me he's in power?haha.

i've made a ticker to count the number of days that we're apart.
we video called just now and i miss him so so so much.
everytime i think about the future, the tears would be on the verge of falling.
will we make it, or not? that's my biggest fear.

i'm not in the mood to go to work, do anything.
and reality is hitting me so hard now :'(

one week ago, we were at challenger buying guitar hero and all his necessities and mambo-ing the night away :'''(

and so my baby has safely reached brisbane.

farewells were never never easy, so i shed a few tears.
but as i said, they're tears of joy for him.
so now he's all on his own and i can't wait to see him again prolly in september or october.





i managed to sleep last night, though the bed felt empty and spacious without him; no more puling the blanket from each other, no more playing 'tickle for 1min' before sleeping, no more pulling his hand over to hug me to sleep, no more stroking his head to make me fall asleep, no more listening to him sleeptalk, no more cuddling in his arms when it starts to get cold in the morning, no more disturbing him and bugging him to wake up and go for breakfast and the list will just go on and on and on.

the day that i've been dreading is finally here.
and I really have to say that its hurting a lot.
I will try my best, not to shed a tear.
but if I do, it'd be tears of joy for him.

all the best baby, you'll be terribly missed. and please take care of yourself.

until we meet again, I love you.

in 24 hours, we'd be making our way to the airport

teehee (: he brought me to cafe del mar for lunch for waking up late.
and drove over to vivo's marche for yummy crepe.
we are so so so damn full now.
dinner at prima later.
how not to get fat?
all the damn good food.

so we were at dbl o last night but we didnt really enjoy ourselves.
baby was complaining that it was too hot and extremely loud and i didnt like the music much.
hence, making us leave at 1 plus.
went home with less than $10 cab fare (:

baby said he'll try to get up and go for breakfast.
i'm up and showered and changed but his still snoring away with his alarm ringing.
so am i supposed to wake him up or leave him be?

and oh, daddy randomly bought a studio apartment yesterday.
i still cant believe they bought it. it feels so buying on impulse.
i mean, they didnt even discuss or give any hint that they were gonna get a property.
brother called and he was like 'eh, jiejie, daddy jus bought a house.' -.-
and baby said if they can buy a house just like that, he's sure daddykins'll get me a car :D

dinner tonight with my folks and his folks at prima!!!

last night's dbl o


oh, if u happen to go to the new mall, Orchard Central,
go to this fruit tart store on the 5th level.
my camera didnt do justice.
the tarts are REALLY REALLY pretty!!!


guitar hero for me baby brother.
isn't he lucky to have me♥


cupcakes from my darling boyfriend♥


my 2 l♥ves
yah, my office comp sucks big time.


i've decided to let him sleep.
will try uploading malacca trip pics on fb.

4 more days left :(
i can't imagine my days without him.

hi baby, if you see this, i just want you to know that i'll be okay when you're not around.
i just hope history won't repeat itself. that's the only thing that's swimming in my head.
hurry up with whatever you're doing and come put me to bed.

xoxo,
yours truly♥

mambo last night! and it was a blast.
baby was like a happy little boy (:
and he looks so damn hot when does his moves :p
prolly his last mambo before he leaves :(
unless we dbl o on saturday.hehe.







came back to his place after zouk and i'll miss cheap mid-night fares.haha.
i'll prolly be here for the next few days.
dinner time!

ok, we just got back from a very short malacca trip.
many many pictures to upload.
been too busy to blog.

and and!on friday was my TP retest and i freaking pass my TP!!!!!
and most of the time in malacca, i kept telling baby i still can't believe i passed.

i have no idea why, but i'm having this feeling again.
everytime i'm in a relationship, i always get it and it sucks.
so now i think the problem lies with me :(

work tomorrow :(