Hi baby, like wat i promise you... Sorry if i have been neglecting you for this entire week darling. but deep down inside you sld noe how i feel rite... so jus tahan for a while more and i will be back... cause:

I will be there to hold your hands forever
Through good health, sickness, happy times, sad times and for all times.
I love u baby and cannot wait to see you in dec...
MUACKS

Love,
Honeydew

enough of waiting.
enough of always desperately trying to locate wifi when im out.
enough of always rushing home, hoping to tell you about how my day went and how much i miss you.
enough of always breaking down.
enough of typing cos as i type, the tears are starting to fall.

and it gets worst when your vision is blurred by the tears, as you scroll down your contact list, trying to find someone to call and pour your heart to, but can't seem to find anyone.

SIGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!! OF COS I MISS MY BABY... If i dun miss my baby, would i call her when she says she is not feeling well or when she says she is scared. dear, i think of u day and night... and really looking forward to spend some quiet time with u when i am back...

regards,
alex

SIGHHHHHHHHHHH :(
i miss you. do you miss me?

just when i really need you now, i can't get through to you :'(

and he said 'to worry about you, is my job. cos you're my girlfriend.'

i miss my boyfriend alot :(

working is probably the only thing that fills my days and keeps me going now.
and i super can't wait to start school. i want my timetable so badly, its like i want it more than i want him. haha.
but baby, dont get me wrong. i want my timetable so that i know when i can see you again (:

and the other thing that gets me all excited and keep my mind off from being all emo, is planning.
planning the things i wanna do with him when he gets back! :D

cos my honeydew is the sweetest and i will do all i can to make him happy (:

i feel happy and i feel sad.
i'm happy that i have him and that we're doing fine.
i'm sad cos we're apart.

i feel love and i feel hate.
love cos i love him so much and i feel loved.
hate cos i just hate how much i love him that it sometimes makes me sick, love sick.

i'm having so many mixed feelings, lost in emotion.

i realised what's wrong.
its cos everyday's so mundane and routined that everyday feels so empty.
like something's missing. and i hate the feeling.
it keeps making me breakdown.
i feel so stressed out even though there's nothing to be stressed about.
i'm sick and tired of putting on a facade cos deep down inside, i really do feel alot of pain.

maybe that's what the rest have been trying to tell me about.
that its not fair for me to be in this situation.
but i'm sure its both ways and not one.
if he can pull through the ordeal, so can i.
yeah it hurts alot, but i will try.

today's date marks a significance for the both of us as, no matter the distance, we have pulled through half a year together (:
and i'm sure we'll pull through longer.

so to my love,
HAPPY 6th MONTHNIVERSARY!♥

absence really does make the heart grow fonder and i cannot wait to hold your hand again and do so many things we used to do together.
so here i patiently wait, for you to come back.

Dear baby,

It is our 6mths anniversary and i cannot believe it. It is my longest relationship so far. It has been a great 6 mths being with u and knowing that you will always be there for me... You know everyday when i wake up, the first thing that comes to my mind is u... Dear, no matter how far we are, my love for u will never change. U are my motivation, inspiration and my everything. i cannot imagine waking up one day knowing that i lose u. therefore i cherish each day i spend with u and treasure the love that u have given me.. I love u darling and HAPPY 6 MONTHS!!!!!! Muacks.

Love,
Alex

It is 10 in brisbane now and i finally reach school. I was suppose to wake up by 8 so i can reach school by 930. But i guess i overslept. haha. Can u imagine, i have been in school for 7 days a week for the past 2 weeks. Boring.. haha... But i guess this is life and the life that i have chosen so i guess i just have to suck it up and do it.. Since i did not keep my promise yesterday, i shall make good of my promise today but finishing 80% of my team report. Then tml i will start studying aero 3000 and finish up my project. Anyway i will be going to eat steak tml... no one can guess how much it cost... haha... It is only $2 for a piece of 200gm steak... So freaking cheap... haha...

Back home in a far away land, i noe that someone is there praying and worrying for me. And i so miss that person so much. And i cannot wait to see her again... Hey baby, you know wat is keeping me motivated. It is u... Y? Bec i always tell myself if i dun do well, i will not give u a good life in the future and ur dad wun let me be with u... who wans their princess to be with a failure rite? haha... Anyway got to carry on doing my report... love ya baby... Muacks....

Love,
ALEX

i really really really love this song♥

Somewhere out there,
Beneath the pale moonlight,
Someone's thinking of me,
And loving me tonight.

Somewhere out there,
Someone's saying a prayer,
That we'll find one another,
In that big somewhere out there.

And even though I know how very far apart we are,
It helps to think we might be wishing on the same bright star,
And when the night wind starts to sing a lonesome lullaby,
It helps to think we're sleeping underneath the same big sky.

Somewhere out there,
If love can see us through,
Then we'll be together,
Somewhere out there,
Out where dreams
Come true.

Alex Tan: I so miss everything that is in sin... But the thing that i miss the most is the hugs and kisses that u give me every morn when i go to work and when i sleep... Nth can compare the warm and love that u give me everytime u tell me that u love me... i ...miss u baby and love u... u will always be in my heart...

i really think i have the best boyfriend. he is the sweetest everrrrrr.
and i really really really miss him :(
i miss everything about him.
and i really want to hug him :(

I am all hyped up for the end of the year!
though I still have 4 more months to go, I am all ecstatic for my baby's birthday!
he made mine special and memorable and i'm gonna use these 4 months to prepare and do the same for his too!
cos he's simply the best and he deserves the bestestttt.
yayness! (:

alyssa had a bad day today.
she took a wrong bus and all the other little events reminded her of him :(

so thank you baby for being such a great listening ear (:
i love you and im so glad i have u in my life (:
and everyday after work, i look forward to our convos and i always wanna save our convos.haha.

so mom came to cadelcott to pick me up and i took over the wheel.
and while i was driving, SQUARE ROOMS WAS PLAYING ON THE RADIO.
yes, i got reminded that he remembers the time when i texted him that i heard square rooms and it reminded me of him.
okay, this is confusing. but baby, you know what i mean right?
thank god i was stopped at the traffic light as the tears were going to gush out of my eyes but i held back and danced to the song.
i wanted to text him that the song was being played but then the lights turned green.

i miss him so so so much.
i can't wait to hug him so tight.
and i got jealous when dad came into the car and said "Hi baby" to mom :'(

been having mighty powerful sleeps for the past few days and its back to work tomorrow.
and after working at mediacorp for a week and seeing the celebs in the canteen and in the lift, they look so ordinary to me now and make up and photoshop really does wonders.

ok so its been roughly about a month since my baby has left and my bed still has his share of pillows and his tooth brush is still in the toilet.
but i'm glad that i'm managing to cope with his absence, though everything feels totally different.
it really is quite a drastic change for me since we always do so many things together all the time.
but i'm hanging in there and i hope he is too.
missing him is a definite duh.

so last night, Love Changes Everything was playing on repeat in my itunes.
i love the song and i like the lyrics and it reminds me of mambo nights with my love.
but the point is, this song made me realise that this love has made a few changes.
i might have fallen in and out of a few relationships but this time, this relationship has made an impact on me.
this relationship shined a whole new light about what being in a relationship really is about.
being in a relationship is not only about the two people in the relationship but also about how to appreciate the people and things i have in my life.
this relationship is real and has a whole new meaning, made me stronger and mature.
i consider myself very lucky for everything i have right now.
and i am thankful for what i have.
and i'm still listening to Love Changes Everything.

so yesterday was august the 13th, which is my two favourite girls' special day.
unfortunately we were not able to have a double celebration as planned :(
and i think jerene sure was surprised! thanks to dom, jaclyn and sarah!
anw, it has been ages since i last roamed the streets aimlessly in the wee hours of the morning.
and i'm amazed at how my body clock works.
if i have work, my body refuses to get up, resulting in me being late, though i try my best to get at least 7hours of sleep.
when there's no work(for e.g., today) my body gets me up wide awake though i only slept for a mere 5hours.

ok, i really should stop procrastinating and go shower now.
meeting baby's mom for lunch and gossips about him♥

dear alyssa,

look at what you've done to yourself. you're a mess. wipe your tears and jus move on and do your own stuff. no point wasting any more tears. stop bothering so much and only end up hurting your feelings.

love,
alyssa

back from dropping daddy and picking mommy at the airport.
and i hate the airport.
it brings back both good(BABY DO YOU REMEMBER!?) and bad memories.
well, mostly bad memories.

okay, i've been hearing people talk about how great we ladies are and they're so so true.HAHA.

ok, i heard this some where.
WHATEVER YOU GIVE A WOMEN SHE WILL MAKE GREATER! If you give her sperm, she'll give you a baby. If you give her a house, she'll give you a home. If you give her groceries, she'll give you a meal. If you give her a smile, she'll give you her heart. She multiplies and enlarges what is given to her. So, if you give her any crap, be ready to receive a ton of SHIT!

and saw this somewhere.
I think we're incredibly lucky to be a generation living in a period of time where we get to witness a new millennium, an eclipse, a phenomenal 12.34.56.07.08.09 time moment and more. But some things will never change.. MEN can continue ruling the word, but it is the WOMEN who will continue ruling our lives. Can't live without them..

first day of work tomorrow at cadelcott hill.
omg, i have to walk up the hill every morning and evening.
ok, good form of excercise.

tomorrow marks a new beginning for everything.
and i stongly believe that everything happens for a reason.

hi baby, you're greatly missed from all of us here in singapore♥

so i'm in the living room watching tv, while mom is upstairs in her room.
and then a guy came along with plastic bags of KEROPOK.
and the first thing that came to my mind was 'nenek keropok' so i refused to go to the door(though i know the guy saw me standing up) and demanded for mom to come down and tell the guy we're not intrested.

and she couldn't stop laughing at my silliness.

i swear my heart was beating damn fast when i saw the bags of keropok.

baby's parents gave a surprise visit today(technically ystd since its past 12) since i wasn't feeling well to meet his mom for lunch.
but unfortunately, i was at the doctor's and i still feel so so so bad for not being home.
well after i saw what they got for me, i feel even more terrible for not being home when they came :(

aren't they just so so pretty!

doubt she'll see this but, thank you so much aunty (:

and i cannot wait to sink my teeth in them.


OH OH, HAPPY NATIONAL DAYYY!

ok, im not really a patriotic person but im really glad to be a singaporean and staying in singapore.

like what jerene and i always say 'singapore has the best security and transport' hence it doesnt really matter how late we come back.

i've had a high temp of 39degrees last night and now when i try to get up, my head is spinning worst than a spinning record.

so anw, i went for an interview on thursday and i'm happy to say i wont be jobless and restless and cashless anymore (:

Dear Lord,

thank you for for putting such wonderful people in my life.

amen.

and jus when i showed him the video of taylor swift's you belong with me, he asked me to wait 15minutes.

isn't he such a darling!?

i'm so glad i have him.

he's my happy pill in times of depression♥

today wasn't a very good day :(
I still somehow feel like crappp.
but his call made me smile and forget everything (:
and thank you J&D-luv for being such great friends.

ally is going to be a very an angry girl.
she has complained to the whole world her mom and she's glad that there're people who her mom agrees with her.
she is sick and tired and she is giving up on everything.
and she has been having very bad cravings for cakes/ dessert/ you name it, for the longest time and that'll prolly be the only thing that will make her happy.
okay good night world.



Alyssa got a message that on this day, God wants her to know that she can use any excuse to be happy.
You know how sometimes it seems that life is just throwing you one curved ball after another? Well, guess what, - you have a great way to respond! - you can use any excuse, any at all to be happy. Don't just walk on the street - enjoy the fragrances of the trees and the flowers on your way. Don't just drive your car - sing karaoke to your favorite radio station. -okay, no more wasting time and spoiling my mood by being Little Miss SourPuss.