i realised what's wrong.
its cos everyday's so mundane and routined that everyday feels so empty.
like something's missing. and i hate the feeling.
it keeps making me breakdown.
i feel so stressed out even though there's nothing to be stressed about.
i'm sick and tired of putting on a facade cos deep down inside, i really do feel alot of pain.

maybe that's what the rest have been trying to tell me about.
that its not fair for me to be in this situation.
but i'm sure its both ways and not one.
if he can pull through the ordeal, so can i.
yeah it hurts alot, but i will try.