roughdraft

2009-11-19T08:41:00.001+08:00

Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories, they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye
Even with our fists held high
It never would have worked out right
We were never meant for do or die

I didn't want us to burn out
I didn't come here to hurt you now I can't stop

I want you to know
It doesn't matter where we take this road
Someone's gotta go
And I want you to know
You couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on
So I'm already gone

Looking at you makes it harder
But I know that you'll find another
That doesn't always make you wanna cry
It started with the perfect kiss then
We could feel the poison set in
"Perfect" couldn't keep this love alive
You know that I love you so
I love you enough to let you go

I'm already gone, already gone
You can't make it feel right
When you know that it's wrong
I'm already gone, already gone
There's no moving on
So I'm already gone

2009-11-04T10:27:00.001+08:00

Every time I close my eyes... it's you
And I know now who I am
Yeah yeah yeah
And I know now

There's a place I go when I'm alone
Do anything I want, be anyone I wanna be
But it is us I see
And I cannot believe I'm falling

That's where I'm going, where are you going
Hold it close, won't let this go
Dream catch me yeah
Dream catch me when I fall
Or else I won't come back at all

Do so much
But you don't know... it's true
And I know now who I am
Yeah yeah yeah
And I know now

There's a place I go when I'm alone
Do anything I want, be anyone I wanna be
But it is us I see
And I cannot believe I'm falling

That's where I'm going, where are you going
Hold it close, won't let this go
Dream catch me yeah
Dream catch me when I fall
Or else I won't come back at all

See you as a mountain, a fountain of God
See you as a descant soul in the setting sun
You as the sound of desire, of this love
I’m gone

There's a place I go when I'm alone
Do anything I want, be anyone I wanna be
But it is us I see
And I cannot believe I'm falling

There's a place I go when I'm alone
Do anything I want, be anyone I wanna be
But it is us I see
And I cannot believe I'm falling

That's where I'm going, where are you going
Hold it close, won't let this go
Dream catch me
Dream catch me when I fall
Or else I won't come back at all

2009-10-14T20:00:00.000+08:00

on this date, around this time of next month, someone will be home sweet home :D
my baby's coming home soon!♥

2009-09-28T19:38:00.003+08:00

Hi baby, so glad i still remember wat the username and password are... haha... anyway holidays suck without u... haha... i really got no idea wat to write darling.. or i jus wanna say is tat i love u and my heart will always be with u...

2009-09-26T02:34:00.000+08:00

i love you so much, sometimes it hurts to not have you near :(
i miss you dear♥

2009-09-25T02:29:00.001+08:00

Yesterday is history, tomorrow is a mystery but today is a gift.
That's why it's called the present.

i love love love this phrase.

2009-09-24T11:39:00.002+08:00

when i have nothing to do, i stone and think.
and after coming across something, i just happened to have a thought.
now i feel inferior and im thinking do you really want to be with someone like me?
maybe you deserved better?

2009-09-23T00:00:00.000+08:00

Oh my love its you that I dream of
Oh my love, since that day
Somewhere in my heart I'm always
Dancing with you in the summer rain
Every night and everyday now
Though I know you've gone away
Somewhere in my heart I'm always
Dancing with you in the summer rain

HAPPY 7TH MONTHNIVERSARY TO MY HONEYDEW!
i love you to bitsssssssssssssssssssssssss!♥

2009-09-22T00:28:00.001+08:00

Boyfriend
To see your boyfriend in your dream, represents your waking relationship with him and how you feel about him.

If your boyfriend is away and your dreams of him involve a lot of touching, signifies how much you miss him and his presence and having him being nearby. The dream is telling you not to take the day to day things for granted. Learn to cherish the smaller things in life.

i dream about my boyfriend almost every other night so i went to find out the meaning of seeing your boyfriend in your dreams.
which is what i have always been wanting to talk about, that we should cherish the smaller things in life.
see?everything links and makes sense, so i trust this dream site.haha.

i have always believed that things happen for a reason.
be it good or bad, big or small, everything happens for a reason.
and the reason is, it is to teach you something.

so whatever that happens to you or around you, it is meant for you to observe and understand and put it to good use in your own way.

to me, even the simplest tiniest things can teach me something valuable, so im not going to take things for granted from now on.
therefore i am appreciating everything good and bad, big and small now.
im taking things easy and im doing what im supposed to do and observing what is going on around me and i hope that these things that happen to me or around me will teach me to be a better person.

i am appreciating every corner of life so much more now.

2009-09-21T00:57:00.008+08:00

i am very tired but i cant sleep.
so im trying to recall my very weird dream last night.

all thanks to my very very bad cramps, i dreamt that i was in labour. HAHA.
and it was a baby girl and people were arguing about what to name her and in the end, she was named amelie.
i think its supposed to sound like emily? cos in my dream the name was written on the headrest of the driver's seat[?].(i think i must be spending too much time with eva and driving)
and amelie's father took her away from me and went off with his wife?other wife?mistress?okay whatever, went off with another lady.

Labour
To dream that you are labouring, suggests that you have a goal that will take a lot of hard work to accomplish.
If you are a woman and dream that you are in labour, indicates your desire to start a family.

Birth
To dream of giving birth or see someone else giving birth, suggests that you are giving birth to a new idea or project. It also represents a new attitude, fresh beginnings or a major upcoming event. Alternatively, the dream may be calling attention to your inner child and the potential for your to grow. A more direct interpretation of this dream, may represent your desires/ anxieties of giving birth or the anticipation for such an event to occur.

Baby
To see a baby in your dream, signifies innocence, warmth and new beginnings. Babies symbolize something in your own inner nature that is pure, vulnerable, helpless and/or uncorrupted.
If you dream that you are on your way to the hospital to have a baby, then it signifies your issues of dependency and your desire to be completely cared for. Perhaps you are trying to get out of some responsibility.

Mistress
To dream that your mate has a mistress, suggests you feeling neglected in the relationship. Perhaps you feel that you are not measuring up to the expectations of others, in particular to your mate.

ok this is so so so weird.
anw, boredom led me to do this. haha.
i realised that when i research the things i see in my dreams, they make sense? haha.
i mean, this is prolly my 3rd post about a dream.

2009-09-19T23:17:00.001+08:00

Everything's safe & sound
I am yours & you are mine♥

2009-09-19T01:04:00.002+08:00

for you, i will♥
cos you deserve it.

2009-09-16T22:22:00.002+08:00

因为有你，我才学会相信爱情

2009-09-13T21:26:00.001+08:00

i don't know what to do anymore

2009-09-10T01:41:00.001+08:00

sometimes i wonder, what do you see in me?

2009-08-30T22:30:00.002+08:00

Hi baby, like wat i promise you... Sorry if i have been neglecting you for this entire week darling. but deep down inside you sld noe how i feel rite... so jus tahan for a while more and i will be back... cause:

I will be there to hold your hands forever
Through good health, sickness, happy times, sad times and for all times.
I love u baby and cannot wait to see you in dec...
MUACKS

Love,
Honeydew

2009-08-29T22:03:00.002+08:00

enough of waiting.
enough of always desperately trying to locate wifi when im out.
enough of always rushing home, hoping to tell you about how my day went and how much i miss you.
enough of always breaking down.
enough of typing cos as i type, the tears are starting to fall.

and it gets worst when your vision is blurred by the tears, as you scroll down your contact list, trying to find someone to call and pour your heart to, but can't seem to find anyone.

2009-08-29T09:17:00.003+08:00

SIGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!! OF COS I MISS MY BABY... If i dun miss my baby, would i call her when she says she is not feeling well or when she says she is scared. dear, i think of u day and night... and really looking forward to spend some quiet time with u when i am back...

regards,
alex

2009-08-28T19:33:00.003+08:00

SIGHHHHHHHHHHH :(
i miss you. do you miss me?

2009-08-28T10:29:00.000+08:00

just when i really need you now, i can't get through to you :'(

2009-08-27T16:56:00.003+08:00

and he said 'to worry about you, is my job. cos you're my girlfriend.'

i miss my boyfriend alot :(

2009-08-26T23:02:00.002+08:00

working is probably the only thing that fills my days and keeps me going now.
and i super can't wait to start school. i want my timetable so badly, its like i want it more than i want him. haha.
but baby, dont get me wrong. i want my timetable so that i know when i can see you again (:

and the other thing that gets me all excited and keep my mind off from being all emo, is planning.
planning the things i wanna do with him when he gets back! :D

cos my honeydew is the sweetest and i will do all i can to make him happy (:

2009-08-25T20:53:00.002+08:00

i feel happy and i feel sad.
i'm happy that i have him and that we're doing fine.
i'm sad cos we're apart.

i feel love and i feel hate.
love cos i love him so much and i feel loved.
hate cos i just hate how much i love him that it sometimes makes me sick, love sick.

i'm having so many mixed feelings, lost in emotion.

2009-08-24T19:09:00.003+08:00

i realised what's wrong.
its cos everyday's so mundane and routined that everyday feels so empty.
like something's missing. and i hate the feeling.
it keeps making me breakdown.
i feel so stressed out even though there's nothing to be stressed about.
i'm sick and tired of putting on a facade cos deep down inside, i really do feel alot of pain.

maybe that's what the rest have been trying to tell me about.
that its not fair for me to be in this situation.
but i'm sure its both ways and not one.
if he can pull through the ordeal, so can i.
yeah it hurts alot, but i will try.

2009-08-23T09:40:00.003+08:00

today's date marks a significance for the both of us as, no matter the distance, we have pulled through half a year together (:
and i'm sure we'll pull through longer.

so to my love,
HAPPY 6th MONTHNIVERSARY!♥

absence really does make the heart grow fonder and i cannot wait to hold your hand again and do so many things we used to do together.
so here i patiently wait, for you to come back.

2009-08-22T20:38:00.003+08:00

Dear baby,

It is our 6mths anniversary and i cannot believe it. It is my longest relationship so far. It has been a great 6 mths being with u and knowing that you will always be there for me... You know everyday when i wake up, the first thing that comes to my mind is u... Dear, no matter how far we are, my love for u will never change. U are my motivation, inspiration and my everything. i cannot imagine waking up one day knowing that i lose u. therefore i cherish each day i spend with u and treasure the love that u have given me.. I love u darling and HAPPY 6 MONTHS!!!!!! Muacks.

Love,
Alex

2009-08-22T08:40:00.002+08:00

It is 10 in brisbane now and i finally reach school. I was suppose to wake up by 8 so i can reach school by 930. But i guess i overslept. haha. Can u imagine, i have been in school for 7 days a week for the past 2 weeks. Boring.. haha... But i guess this is life and the life that i have chosen so i guess i just have to suck it up and do it.. Since i did not keep my promise yesterday, i shall make good of my promise today but finishing 80% of my team report. Then tml i will start studying aero 3000 and finish up my project. Anyway i will be going to eat steak tml... no one can guess how much it cost... haha... It is only $2 for a piece of 200gm steak... So freaking cheap... haha...

Back home in a far away land, i noe that someone is there praying and worrying for me. And i so miss that person so much. And i cannot wait to see her again... Hey baby, you know wat is keeping me motivated. It is u... Y? Bec i always tell myself if i dun do well, i will not give u a good life in the future and ur dad wun let me be with u... who wans their princess to be with a failure rite? haha... Anyway got to carry on doing my report... love ya baby... Muacks....

Love,
ALEX

2009-08-21T22:38:00.001+08:00

i really really really love this song♥

Somewhere out there,
Beneath the pale moonlight,
Someone's thinking of me,
And loving me tonight.

Somewhere out there,
Someone's saying a prayer,
That we'll find one another,
In that big somewhere out there.

And even though I know how very far apart we are,
It helps to think we might be wishing on the same bright star,
And when the night wind starts to sing a lonesome lullaby,
It helps to think we're sleeping underneath the same big sky.

Somewhere out there,
If love can see us through,
Then we'll be together,
Somewhere out there,
Out where dreams
Come true.

2009-08-20T21:08:00.001+08:00

Alex Tan: I so miss everything that is in sin... But the thing that i miss the most is the hugs and kisses that u give me every morn when i go to work and when i sleep... Nth can compare the warm and love that u give me everytime u tell me that u love me... i ...miss u baby and love u... u will always be in my heart...

i really think i have the best boyfriend. he is the sweetest everrrrrr.
and i really really really miss him :(
i miss everything about him.
and i really want to hug him :(

2009-08-19T23:20:00.002+08:00

I am all hyped up for the end of the year!
though I still have 4 more months to go, I am all ecstatic for my baby's birthday!
he made mine special and memorable and i'm gonna use these 4 months to prepare and do the same for his too!
cos he's simply the best and he deserves the bestestttt.
yayness! (:

2009-08-18T20:46:00.002+08:00

alyssa had a bad day today.
she took a wrong bus and all the other little events reminded her of him :(

so thank you baby for being such a great listening ear (:
i love you and im so glad i have u in my life (:
and everyday after work, i look forward to our convos and i always wanna save our convos.haha.

2009-08-17T19:32:00.005+08:00

so mom came to cadelcott to pick me up and i took over the wheel.
and while i was driving, SQUARE ROOMS WAS PLAYING ON THE RADIO.
yes, i got reminded that he remembers the time when i texted him that i heard square rooms and it reminded me of him.
okay, this is confusing. but baby, you know what i mean right?
thank god i was stopped at the traffic light as the tears were going to gush out of my eyes but i held back and danced to the song.
i wanted to text him that the song was being played but then the lights turned green.

i miss him so so so much.
i can't wait to hug him so tight.
and i got jealous when dad came into the car and said "Hi baby" to mom :'(

2009-08-16T16:46:00.002+08:00

been having mighty powerful sleeps for the past few days and its back to work tomorrow.
and after working at mediacorp for a week and seeing the celebs in the canteen and in the lift, they look so ordinary to me now and make up and photoshop really does wonders.

ok so its been roughly about a month since my baby has left and my bed still has his share of pillows and his tooth brush is still in the toilet.
but i'm glad that i'm managing to cope with his absence, though everything feels totally different.
it really is quite a drastic change for me since we always do so many things together all the time.
but i'm hanging in there and i hope he is too.
missing him is a definite duh.

so last night, Love Changes Everything was playing on repeat in my itunes.
i love the song and i like the lyrics and it reminds me of mambo nights with my love.
but the point is, this song made me realise that this love has made a few changes.
i might have fallen in and out of a few relationships but this time, this relationship has made an impact on me.
this relationship shined a whole new light about what being in a relationship really is about.
being in a relationship is not only about the two people in the relationship but also about how to appreciate the people and things i have in my life.
this relationship is real and has a whole new meaning, made me stronger and mature.
i consider myself very lucky for everything i have right now.
and i am thankful for what i have.
and i'm still listening to Love Changes Everything.

2009-08-14T09:16:00.002+08:00

so yesterday was august the 13th, which is my two favourite girls' special day.
unfortunately we were not able to have a double celebration as planned :(
and i think jerene sure was surprised! thanks to dom, jaclyn and sarah!
anw, it has been ages since i last roamed the streets aimlessly in the wee hours of the morning.
and i'm amazed at how my body clock works.
if i have work, my body refuses to get up, resulting in me being late, though i try my best to get at least 7hours of sleep.
when there's no work(for e.g., today) my body gets me up wide awake though i only slept for a mere 5hours.

ok, i really should stop procrastinating and go shower now.
meeting baby's mom for lunch and gossips about him♥

2009-08-12T20:13:00.003+08:00

dear alyssa,

look at what you've done to yourself. you're a mess. wipe your tears and jus move on and do your own stuff. no point wasting any more tears. stop bothering so much and only end up hurting your feelings.

love,
alyssa

2009-08-11T23:30:00.003+08:00

back from dropping daddy and picking mommy at the airport.
and i hate the airport.
it brings back both good(BABY DO YOU REMEMBER!?) and bad memories.
well, mostly bad memories.

2009-08-11T21:36:00.002+08:00

okay, i've been hearing people talk about how great we ladies are and they're so so true.HAHA.

ok, i heard this some where.
WHATEVER YOU GIVE A WOMEN SHE WILL MAKE GREATER! If you give her sperm, she'll give you a baby. If you give her a house, she'll give you a home. If you give her groceries, she'll give you a meal. If you give her a smile, she'll give you her heart. She multiplies and enlarges what is given to her. So, if you give her any crap, be ready to receive a ton of SHIT!

and saw this somewhere.
I think we're incredibly lucky to be a generation living in a period of time where we get to witness a new millennium, an eclipse, a phenomenal 12.34.56.07.08.09 time moment and more. But some things will never change.. MEN can continue ruling the word, but it is the WOMEN who will continue ruling our lives. Can't live without them..

2009-08-10T19:45:00.002+08:00

first day of work tomorrow at cadelcott hill.
omg, i have to walk up the hill every morning and evening.
ok, good form of excercise.

tomorrow marks a new beginning for everything.
and i stongly believe that everything happens for a reason.

hi baby, you're greatly missed from all of us here in singapore♥

2009-08-09T13:11:00.002+08:00

so i'm in the living room watching tv, while mom is upstairs in her room.
and then a guy came along with plastic bags of KEROPOK.
and the first thing that came to my mind was 'nenek keropok' so i refused to go to the door(though i know the guy saw me standing up) and demanded for mom to come down and tell the guy we're not intrested.

and she couldn't stop laughing at my silliness.

i swear my heart was beating damn fast when i saw the bags of keropok.

2009-08-09T00:34:00.009+08:00

baby's parents gave a surprise visit today(technically ystd since its past 12) since i wasn't feeling well to meet his mom for lunch.
but unfortunately, i was at the doctor's and i still feel so so so bad for not being home.
well after i saw what they got for me, i feel even more terrible for not being home when they came :(

aren't they just so so pretty!

doubt she'll see this but, thank you so much aunty (:

and i cannot wait to sink my teeth in them.

OH OH, HAPPY NATIONAL DAYYY!

ok, im not really a patriotic person but im really glad to be a singaporean and staying in singapore.

like what jerene and i always say 'singapore has the best security and transport' hence it doesnt really matter how late we come back.

2009-08-08T09:46:00.003+08:00

i've had a high temp of 39degrees last night and now when i try to get up, my head is spinning worst than a spinning record.

so anw, i went for an interview on thursday and i'm happy to say i wont be jobless and restless and cashless anymore (:

2009-08-07T17:20:00.000+08:00

Dear Lord,

thank you for for putting such wonderful people in my life.

amen.

2009-08-04T21:42:00.000+08:00

and jus when i showed him the video of taylor swift's you belong with me, he asked me to wait 15minutes.

isn't he such a darling!?

i'm so glad i have him.

he's my happy pill in times of depression♥

2009-08-03T22:30:00.000+08:00

today wasn't a very good day :(
I still somehow feel like crappp.
but his call made me smile and forget everything (:
and thank you J&D-luv for being such great friends.

2009-08-01T22:54:00.011+08:00

ally is ~~going to be a very~~ an angry girl.
she has complained to ~~the whole world~~ her mom and she's glad that ~~there're people who~~ her mom agrees with her.
she is sick and tired and she is giving up on everything.
and she has been having very bad cravings for cakes/ dessert/ you name it, for the longest time and that'll prolly be the only thing that will make her happy.
okay good night world.

Alyssa got a message that on this day, God wants her to know that she can use any excuse to be happy.
You know how sometimes it seems that life is just throwing you one curved ball after another? Well, guess what, - you have a great way to respond! - you can use any excuse, any at all to be happy. Don't just walk on the street - enjoy the fragrances of the trees and the flowers on your way. Don't just drive your car - sing karaoke to your favorite radio station. -okay, no more wasting time and spoiling my mood by being Little Miss SourPuss.

2009-07-31T23:51:00.007+08:00

zouk pictures all up in fb.
camera managed to pull thru its ordeal.

everyday seems so totally mundane now.
and im dreading tmr.
i want september and november to come asap.

haven't been in the best of moods recently.
finally an emotional breakdown after roughly a week.
it really feels good to let it all out.

31 sent out yet i didn't even get 1 back :(
im not being petty, i jus want something i can turn to for comfort.
anw, you have fun tmr.

God demands the totality of your being. That you invest all of yourself into celebrating the glory and the preciousness of being alive right now, no holding back and saving for later. - so i guess i should just stop brooding over him, it, everything.

2009-07-30T23:11:00.003+08:00

back not too long ago from yummy dinner with baby's family at vivo's no signboard.

his aunt is back from hong kong and i'm gonna be her shopping partner tomorrow.
hopefully mummy gives me the car. i'm tired of public transport.

oh! and look at the time! its 11:11pm. hehe. okay everyone, make your wish!

2009-07-30T04:02:00.003+08:00

we're back from zouk.
and dom had to come all the way down to zouk to help bring jerene back for me.

we were at mambo the whole night!
glad that sarah had fun on the platform with me (:
but it isn't the same without my mambo king :(

i've got a gazillion pictures but my camera is d-e-a-d.
like not revive-able :(

okay waiting for him to wake up and get ready for school.

2009-07-29T11:58:00.006+08:00

guess what the postwoman just brought!

haha, my very unglam driving licence.

anyway, i feel like crap today :/
i suddenly yearn so much for him and how we used to do so many things together.
and there're so many things, which we have been saying we wanna do but, have not been fulfilled.
everything i do now feels so different.
apologies for being emo.

2009-07-28T00:34:00.003+08:00

in my hands every night as i fall to sleep

i miss you so much.

2009-07-27T04:37:00.000+08:00

hehe, its his first day of school today!
and i 'woke' him up (:

have fun in school baby!

2009-07-25T18:11:00.002+08:00

today passed rather quick and dan and i are gonna zonk out soon.

i miss him much :(

2009-07-24T18:52:00.003+08:00

CONGRATULATIONS TO MY BABY BROTHER FOR MAKING IT TO SINGAPORE YOUTH FLYING CLUB.
may you blossom in your flight, and dont forget to fly me around (:

i have officially been appointed driver.
i'm getting tired of driving.
haha.

2009-07-23T21:43:00.008+08:00

I think i've been saying "I love you" too often and loosely, that i completely killed the meaning and essence of it and it's hard when i really want to express my true affections to him.

Everytime i say "I love you", he'll be like "Ya, I know." :/

So baby, though you're far away on our 5th month(and many more months to come), i had fun talking to you the whole day and receiving the pretty pretty sunflowers was a really pleasant surprise (:
Once again, thank you for being such a wonderful boyfriend.
You're the sweetest ever and from the bottom of my heart, i really do love you♥

My brother is back from his run, and his tummy is gone(from the daily runs)!
He has motivated me to do the same(even if it means runing in my chucks till i get a new pair of running shoes).

Tomorrow's gonna be boring(and the boyfriend's gonna be out). I have no plans what so ever, thanks to me having work on Saturday morning at friggin' 8am.

2009-07-23T15:30:00.001+08:00

the truth is out!
hahahahaha.
thank you so much baby (:
i really like it alot.
they're really really pretty.
but blogger's being sucha biatch and i can't upload pics of the pretty flowers.

2009-07-23T12:37:00.002+08:00

the silly boy insisted that i stay home today from 12pm to 2pm.

whatever he has up his sleeves, i will kill him when he gets back :p

anw, its our 5th month today (:
so,
HAPPY 5TH MONTHNIVERSARY BABY!

i love you a truckloads♥

2009-07-22T23:37:00.002+08:00

today was a happy random day (:
i loved today♥

well, beside the passing of my ipod :'(
i'm still very sad.

To my dearest ipod nano 1st gen,
you've been a great pal.
always with me where ever i went.always there for me when i was bored, lonely and needed entertainment.
whatever the time, you were there for me.
your sudden departure is really tragic.i feel so lost whenever i'm alone now.
and nothing can ever replace you.and i dont think i can ever get you back again(duh, its 1st gen).

may you rest in peace with michael jackson, maybe he needs you up there.

xoxo,
ally

2009-07-21T12:22:00.003+08:00

i'm happy that everything is going well for him now (:
Whenever you need somebody
I'll bring my love to you
You don't have to say you love me
I just wanna be with you

and i'm starting to get used to his absence, finding things to keep me busy.
zouk next wednesday with my girls, some which i have not seen in years!

2009-07-20T11:02:00.003+08:00

that long distance call made my morning wayyy better than yesterday's (:

i think calling is better than video calling.

calling makes it sound like you're nearby.
video calling, though i get to see your face, i am reminded that you're far away.

just a random thought.

2009-07-19T11:15:00.004+08:00

a horrible flu in the morning kicked start a horrible day.
which leads to me being even more emo, and thinking all sorts.
i never felt this before.

shut everything out, make everything go away.
walk off the building.
over dose.
multiple cuts.

2009-07-18T18:38:00.003+08:00

i've never been much of an emo person, and i can say that this is prolly the first time i'm feeling so so so miserable.

2009-07-17T23:14:00.005+08:00

so dan and jerene are downstairs playing guitar hero, and i retired cos i've got a full day tmr :(

i have been thinking about this for quite sometime, that all these years, there's a connection.
and jerene said "Fate had not come knocking on your door yet".

when he was a kid, he was always hanging around his dad's office at kiliney and eating at kiliney kopitiam.
when i was a kid, i used to hang around my cousin's place at kiliney, and also eat at kiliney kopitiam.
we'd probably walked pass each other, but took no notice.

i was always at my grandma's place at tiong bahru, eating at tiong bahru market and walking around tiong bahru plaza.
he too, was often at tiong bahru market and tiong bahru plaza.
walked pass each other, but took no notice?

when we were kids, we were always at parkway parade with our families.
once again, probably walked pass each other, but took no notice.

when he wanted to transfer primary school, they had an interview with the principal.
when mom wanted me to change class, we had an interview with the principal.
the principal is the same guy (we're from different primary schools).

when i was working at sentosa, my colleuges kept talking about him, like as if i know him, when i have no clue who he is.

and one fine day, this guy came along and he's the bestest thing that entered my life.
so, thank you baby, for bringing so much fun, joy and laughter into my life.
i miss you.

2009-07-17T21:54:00.000+08:00

Love changes, changes everything
Love makes you fly. It can break your wings
Love changes, changes everything
Love makes the rules from fools to kings
Love changes, love changes everything

2009-07-16T10:55:00.003+08:00

Proposal
To dream that you are being proposed to, indicates that you are merging a previously unknown aspect of yourself . More directly, the dream suggests you are thinking about marriage or some serious long-term commitment/project/situation. Your reaction to the proposal indicates your true feelings about marriage or commitment.

he dreamt about this last week.
i dreamt about this last night.

i told him, "Whatever you dream of, won't come true."
he said, "Good things will and bad things won't."

Ok, so the other stuff i saw in that dream;

Elevator
The up and down action of the elevator represents the ups and downs of your life. It also symbolizes emotions and thoughts that are emerging out of and submerging into your subconscious.
uh-huh, kinda true

Dress
To see or wear a dress in your dream, represents a feminine outlook or feminine perspective on a situation. You are freely expressing your femininity.
Look up the specific color for additional significance.
erh, i always wear dresses

Turquoise
To see turquoise in your dream, symbolizes good luck and fortune. It is said that the turquoise gemstone wards off evil. Additionally, it possess healing energy and acts to unify forces between the spirits of the earth and the air. As a color, turquoise is symbolic of healing power and natural energy. It is often associated with the sun, fire, and male power.
ok, so he's trying to tell me he's in power?haha.

2009-07-15T19:31:00.006+08:00

i've made a ticker to count the number of days that we're apart.
we video called just now and i miss him so so so much.
everytime i think about the future, the tears would be on the verge of falling.
will we make it, or not? that's my biggest fear.

i'm not in the mood to go to work, do anything.
and reality is hitting me so hard now :'(

one week ago, we were at challenger buying guitar hero and all his necessities and mambo-ing the night away :'''(

2009-07-15T09:01:00.003+08:00

and so my baby has safely reached brisbane.

farewells were never never easy, so i shed a few tears.
but as i said, they're tears of joy for him.
so now he's all on his own and i can't wait to see him again prolly in september or october.

i managed to sleep last night, though the bed felt empty and spacious without him; no more puling the blanket from each other, no more playing 'tickle for 1min' before sleeping, no more pulling his hand over to hug me to sleep, no more stroking his head to make me fall asleep, no more listening to him sleeptalk, no more cuddling in his arms when it starts to get cold in the morning, no more disturbing him and bugging him to wake up and go for breakfast and the list will just go on and on and on.

2009-07-14T19:21:00.001+08:00

the day that i've been dreading is finally here.
and I really have to say that its hurting a lot.
I will try my best, not to shed a tear.
but if I do, it'd be tears of joy for him.

all the best baby, you'll be terribly missed. and please take care of yourself.

until we meet again, I love you.

2009-07-13T20:57:00.001+08:00

in 24 hours, we'd be making our way to the airport

2009-07-12T15:57:00.003+08:00

teehee (: he brought me to cafe del mar for lunch for waking up late.
and drove over to vivo's marche for yummy crepe.
we are so so so damn full now.
dinner at prima later.
how not to get fat?
all the damn good food.

2009-07-12T09:05:00.003+08:00

so we were at dbl o last night but we didnt really enjoy ourselves.
baby was complaining that it was too hot and extremely loud and i didnt like the music much.
hence, making us leave at 1 plus.
went home with less than $10 cab fare (:

baby said he'll try to get up and go for breakfast.
i'm up and showered and changed but his still snoring away with his alarm ringing.
so am i supposed to wake him up or leave him be?

and oh, daddy randomly bought a studio apartment yesterday.
i still cant believe they bought it. it feels so buying on impulse.
i mean, they didnt even discuss or give any hint that they were gonna get a property.
brother called and he was like 'eh, jiejie, daddy jus bought a house.' -.-
and baby said if they can buy a house just like that, he's sure daddykins'll get me a car :D

dinner tonight with my folks and his folks at prima!!!

last night's dbl o

oh, if u happen to go to the new mall, Orchard Central,
go to this fruit tart store on the 5th level.
my camera didnt do justice.
the tarts are REALLY REALLY pretty!!!

guitar hero for me baby brother.
isn't he lucky to have me♥

cupcakes from my darling boyfriend♥

my 2 l♥ves
yah, my office comp sucks big time.

i've decided to let him sleep.
will try uploading malacca trip pics on fb.

2009-07-10T21:33:00.003+08:00

4 more days left :(
i can't imagine my days without him.

hi baby, if you see this, i just want you to know that i'll be okay when you're not around.
i just hope history won't repeat itself. that's the only thing that's swimming in my head.
hurry up with whatever you're doing and come put me to bed.

xoxo,
yours truly♥

2009-07-09T16:51:00.003+08:00

mambo last night! and it was a blast.
baby was like a happy little boy (:
and he looks so damn hot when does his moves :p
prolly his last mambo before he leaves :(
unless we dbl o on saturday.hehe.

came back to his place after zouk and i'll miss cheap mid-night fares.haha.
i'll prolly be here for the next few days.
dinner time!

2009-07-05T21:19:00.002+08:00

ok, we just got back from a very short malacca trip.
many many pictures to upload.
been too busy to blog.

and and!on friday was my TP retest and i freaking pass my TP!!!!!
and most of the time in malacca, i kept telling baby i still can't believe i passed.

i have no idea why, but i'm having this feeling again.
everytime i'm in a relationship, i always get it and it sucks.
so now i think the problem lies with me :(

work tomorrow :(

2009-06-28T23:32:00.002+08:00

today, we made a random last minute trip to JB!

9 more days left with my baby :(

i have so many things that i have not done.

so should i go to work tomorrow?or not?

2009-06-23T23:11:00.003+08:00

had my first practical after i failed my tp.
and thank goodness im not rusty (:

baby's dad's birthday tomorrow!
still thinking how to get to shangri-la after work.

2009-06-21T18:27:00.002+08:00

ok so yesterday's surprise bbq wasn't really a surprise :(
well at least getting gold class tickets for Ghosts of Girlfriends Past was a surprise (:

whatever it is, everything i did, it was all to make him happy and i hope he enjoyed himself.

we're rushing to taka soon for dinner at crystal jade.
yumm i want peking duck!!!
and prolly find something for his dad.

2009-06-14T12:27:00.000+08:00

haha.im awake while he's still sleeping.and he looks so so so so cute and adorable!!!!!!!!!!!!! :))))make me wanna snuggle next to him and pinch his face and kiss him and hug him.but i shall resist and let him have his beauty sleep (:
i love you baby!

2009-06-13T23:59:00.001+08:00

today we've been eating nothing but japanese food the whole day.haha.
ichiban at great world for breakfast/lunch.
aburiya at robertson quay for superb wagyu beef for dinner.
tampopo at liang court for dessert.

baby is still doing his work and im up accompanying him.
poor boy's been so so so busy.

tomorrow's gonna be yet another busy day.
my cousin's wedding in the afternoon and baby's friend's wedding dinner at swissotel.

3 more weekends left with my dearest :(

2009-06-12T23:06:00.002+08:00

I GOT MY BABY BACKKK! (:
so so so happy.
who's currently snoring away in his dreamland.
the poor boy's very very tired.

and work was fine ((:
funny and nice colleagues (((:
bused to bt merah straight after work and went over to baby's place to wait for him to get homeee! ((((:
then made our way to vivo for dinner and now we're back at his place.
every second with him is precious ((((((:

ok this post is like the extreme of the previous post.haha.

2009-06-11T18:59:00.003+08:00

ok im uploading pics into fb now.

anw, managed to see my love yesterday (:
and he bought mos burger back for us hungry people.yummyummy.

and im not going to see him till tmr night cos he's out at sea :(
and it still feels like i have not seen him for weeks :((
i wanna make up and spend more time with him but time doesn't allow me to do so :(((
and i start work tmr :((((
and i still got a load of things to do :(((((

:(((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((

2009-06-10T20:39:00.001+08:00

alyssa is very very sad now ):
she has not met/ seen/ hugged/ kissed/ squeezed alex since sunday )):

2009-06-09T17:36:00.003+08:00

we're back home.
and somehow, it feels hotter in singapore than batam.
oh yah, i got the job and im starting on friday at 8:30am :(
goodbye super free and restless days :(

and i got a whole load of pics to upload.
some are already in jerene's blog.
the rest will be in fb.

hi dear.cant wait to see you tomorrow!

2009-06-09T08:42:00.002+08:00

so its day 3, going home day!

i miss my baby so much but he's on duty today so i will only get to see and squeeze him tomorow :(

we're gonna wash up now and head down for breakfast!
do last minute packing and say goodbye to batam and hello singapore!

2009-06-08T08:20:00.003+08:00

day 2.

time check, its 7:20am here.
we're all up and going for a swim then head down to the coffee house for breakfasttt!
this is such a sinful trip.

2009-06-07T19:58:00.002+08:00

okay.so we're in batam now.

and its still day 1.

we arrived, and already spent thousands of dollars.
and had our long awaited A&W :)))
and now, jerene dear and i jus finished a 2.5hr long relaxing aromatherapy massage, traditional facial and herbal bath.
shiok.

pictures up when we're back?or tonight if im not lazy.

HI MY POOR BABY HAVING DUTY NOW.

2009-06-05T23:47:00.002+08:00

baby's having his night out.
and so am i with jerene and dan (:
the three of us(yes, including my brother), are doing facial and going to watch wanted and we're gonna bunk in dan's room.

2009-06-05T17:38:00.001+08:00

OMG! I AM SO SO SO HAPPY AND HIGH NOW!
I LOVE SCRIBD!!!
I HOPE EVERYTHING ELSE GOES WELL!!!
fuck the job.this is wayyyy more important.

2009-06-04T22:55:00.002+08:00

baby's busy doing his work and im here accompanying him in the hot living room with a nice cold bowl of egg tau huey.
kimora's coming up next!

i have a long to-do list and i cannot wait to get started!
and i have an interview at 230pm tmr!
gimme the moolahs

2009-06-02T19:49:00.001+08:00

waiting & waiting & waiting & waiting & waiting & ...

2009-06-01T21:41:00.001+08:00

Night Bazaar at Clarke Quay Central Square on 5 & 6 June, 4pm to 12midnight!

2009-06-01T19:35:00.002+08:00

monday.
danyal's back to school, baby and jerene's back to work.
well, we had fun yesterday, swimming at the club and wonderful homecooked dinner while watching bride wars.
which reminds me, i HAVE to go down to gardens to return it later.

and here i am rotting at home.
but i feel accomplished and I ~~AM GOING TO~~ MUST MAKE IT A SUCCESS.

2009-05-30T23:43:00.004+08:00

glad that baby didn't have to work yesterday = spending more time with him

had yummy rosti at marche for lunch and yummy cze char with his parents for dinner.

and spent the night lazing at his place.

today, we woke up to great weather (:

had yummy lunch at j8 with his parents, dropped them of at rjc and headed back to my place.

lazed for a short while and off to pick his family for his grandma's birthday celebration with loads of yummy food.

it was overwhelming.for me.as i have never, in 20 years, celebrated someone's birthday with a huge load of family members.it was nice.

anyway, baby's confirm leaving on the 8th of july and it dawned on me that its not too far away(about 1 month left?)and i keep having emotional breakdowns :(

but the good thing is, he'll be there for only 3 years! (:

and we realised that we tend to over eat during the weekends :p

so i promised baby that when he comes back, i'll lose all the excess.

i love you baby, all the way.

2009-05-28T20:20:00.002+08:00

WHERE ART THOU!? :(

i miss you :(

2009-05-27T22:18:00.000+08:00

fuckedupfuckedupfuckedup
:(
:(
:(

2009-05-22T14:40:00.002+08:00

busy preparing for tonight's surprise picnic for baby!
pray it won't rain.

2009-05-21T00:22:00.002+08:00

woke up at 4am, showered at 5am, lazed(i was blow drying my hair, straightening my hair, removing my nail polish, cutting my nails) till jerene was ready and we left house at 720am.
jerene headed for work while i headed over(BY BUS) to baby's place.
all because i wanted to give baby a lovely morning surprise!
ok well,wanted to surprise him but he heard me open the door, but im sure he was still surprised!heh.
dished out his porridge, see him eat medicine, cooked alphabet soup for him, gave him a massage cos he kept complaining his back was killing him, accompanied him watch tv, let him play DS and let him rest then i headed home.
so tell me, isn't he one lucky pampered boy?

i feel so so restless.omg.
i need to do someting!
a job, driving practicals, piano lessons?anything!
but at least tomorrow i know i'm gonna be busy with friday's surprise for baby.
hopefully he'll feel much better by then.
really hope everything goes well!

GET WELL SOON BABY!
i love you muchos♥

2009-05-19T22:31:00.004+08:00

so beverly came over today and jerene helped me straighten my hair.haha.
and my baby's not well. he's got a temperature :(
he took mc and headed home to rest. and the sweet me bought fish soup, cabbed over to his place, checked on him, gave him a kiss, talked with his mom and cabbed back home.
been super restless the whole day as baby was resting, too sound asleep, to msg me.
i miss that boy so much that i'm wearing his teeshirt to sleep.
which reminds me of shontelle's 'T Shirt' song.

so the past few days have been filled with birthday lunches, dinners, meet-ups.
thank you everyone for such a fun filled 20th! (:
especially baby and jerene (:
you guys are so so sweeeet♥

kimora's gonna start in 10mins.
but i think i'm gonna skip her tonight cos i'm following jerene to hbf in the morning and head to baby's place, so i'll jus catch the repeat tomorrow.

pictures are all up in facebook.

goodnight!

2009-05-15T11:20:00.016+08:00

jerene took off today to accompany me (: how sweet.but she just keeps sitting up and lying down. haha.so cute lorrr.

okay so yesterday baby brought me out for dinner and it was a lovely surprise!though it was kinda ruined, but thanks baby, i was still surprised (:and the food was really really good! as usual.

drove over to chinatown to meet mom, danyal, jerene, barry, michelle, gail, peter and lisa then headed home.

and baby gave me yet another wonderful surprise when we got home! i couldn't stop smiling. he got me a DSlite. heehee (x

okay, and i've finally got my comp back so this post is gonna be spammed with many many many many many many many pictures!

that night at dbl O

KTV with nic and jerene

Vanilla Pod

we finally met sarah!!!

last minute zouk trip

cutie eva

my surprise gift in advance from jerene

sichuan earthquake survivor

danyalyssalexerene

car rides

and my wonderful birthday dinner with baby

and finally,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO US!♥

2009-05-14T08:36:00.003+08:00

met beat for our usual void deck gossips last night.

and we're such bitches :p

stayed up to wait for baby to get back (:

and he got back at around 12. missed that boy so much.

then we headed off to bed.

he zonked out so quick and i find comfort in hearing him breathe. its like a lullaby.

to know that there's someone there for you. right next to you.

i'm stuck on The Show by Lenka. its such a cute song! love, love, love it!

okay, gotta go shower and get ready and accompany mom to gh then drop by ndc to get my retainers.

and hopefully baby ends work early today!

mom's gonna be admitted in hospital on monday again :(

birthday tomorrow.

2009-05-13T18:16:00.001+08:00

i've been doing nothing but laze the whole day and my back is aching.

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getting retainers tomorrow!

birthday in 2 days.